The Sun

I will wait

until all the universe

becomes one again

You wanted me there

while they stripped you

Don’t leave me

You said

So I covered my eyes

A mother shouldn’t have

To see this

but not before

I saw your body (when did you get so skinny)

I would trade it

In a heartbeat

For the other one

When you were

Twelve the one

You hated

Because they

Hated it

And I never

Really saw it

Did I?

And still

I don’t see

But now

I’m trying.

Sons shouldn’t

Have to teach

Their mothers

Lessons like this.

I’m sorry.

Now, this body made

Unmanly before those three

(Why did they have to be so big?)

Watching you while

You took off your clothes

While you put your hands up

Don’t worry you told them

There’s nothing much there

I wanted to scream

You will never see

A boy as beautiful

As this

So I will wait

Until the universe

becomes one again

Like you and me

When you will come

Back to me.

If I only knew that day

You came home

Hugging me

While I distracted, barely touched you at all

Then crying when your blond baby sister

Sick with a fever

Reached for you

She knows

I thought

How much you love her.

Do they know

I doubt it

How much you have inside

Have always had

There is something

Perfect and beautiful

Inside you

But I wish I could see

It

Again

So please

Come back

To me

But I’ll wait

Until the universe becomes

One again.